should i go or not? it's got me thinking. when i finally got it off my mind, li ling msg mi ask me when i wanna go? i really donnoe if i really shd or shd not go? somehow i do feel weird. weird because of the environment, weird because i haven attend someone whom i knew de funeral and moreover it's my 'ex' funeral. i haven been talking to him for years avoided him as far as possible. blocked him in msn even when he msg me i jus delete the messenges away. i did all these because i didn't wanna give him anymore hopes on me so tat he can move on.
suddenly when i heard of him passed away. sadness do feel inside of me i donnoe why.
i force myself not to think of it but somehow i can't cause i really donnoe how to react to this news. i would rather li ling not tell me. now tat she told me i really donnoe wat i shd or shd not do? one part of me is telling me to go, one part of me is telling not to.
who can really help mi sort out whether i shd go anot?
sigh. it's a tough decision.
ying was telling me since he has always wanted to see me mayb i shd go as to fulfil his last wish. sigh. i guess so.
