guess yingshd be reaching or have already reach taiwan by now leba. and she always go on holiday during national day holiday. haha. during secondary school she went to hk during the national day holiday. and i still kept the bracelet tat she gave it to mi when she went holidaying in hk! hmmm.. taiwan is a nice place for great food! i still miss the food there la. like ah zhongmeesua la whereby u have to stand at the roadside to eat the meesuade. no tables alright. it was a great experience. try eating the smelly tofu too. it's so smelly la. i only ate a small bite and my mouth stinks like shit. and the ji pa there whooo.. great! 2 bucks for a big big piece.
it's one of those pms period la. my temper is quite beyond control these days. the medicine tat i ate for my face makes my whole face red like shit. i don even need blushers now. pimples doesn't go down instead pop out more. yes indeed he told mi before or after uryi ma come u will have many pimple breakouts de. it's jus getting the hell out of mi la. yes indeed 6 more mths. a lil sacrifice now to see better results soon. i was lucky to born a girl so tat i wouldn't need to serve the ns. but every mth in a wk the girls have to suffer from cramps and even scared tat it'll overflow. argh!
is it tat hard to try to let my mum understands tat i'm no longer the kid in her eyes? she can't carry on protecting mi and sis. mum and sis have been quarrelling for a few days. due to sis coming home late and gibing excuses this and tat. i noe wat my sis is going through and i noe wat my mum feels bout it. and the age of 14 most of us will be closer to friends instead of family. it's the part tat we will be facing. sometimes i do hope tat mum will jus sit together with us and ask bout wat we're feeling and this and tat instead of making us going on her own way. by doing this she'll jus force us to go to the ways tat she won't like. she'll nv understands how we truly feels from the inside la. she've been protecting us from her shell but how long can she protect us? we'll still have to start our own family this and tat soon. i seriously can't wait for myself to turn 21. i wanna do so many things tat i've nv ever done be4. - looking at the nightlife of singapore. i was trained to slp as early as possible since young. - stayover at someone's place. - go out as and when i like. there're so many things tat i've nv done be4. so so many things. i'm not living a life of a twenty yr old person shd be. instead i'm living a no life life. work - home. home - work. i nv done something tat is fun. under the protection of mum. when she say no means no those kind of stuffs. sigh. i'm 20 don i even have the way of my life? which is jus so sad. ppl younger than mi are engaging in a far more happier life out there than mi.
sometimes i do think tat ppl like mi shouldn't have a bf afterall. bf can't see mi as and when he likes. public holidays, sunday i can't get out of the house. and i noe my bf have been quite unhappy bout it. i'm useless i can't do anything bout it. all i could say was sorry and nth more. it's quite unfair for bf too. so i've been saying alot of 'why not jus break up those kinds of stuffs'. i don wanna make him feel terrible. all i wanted to was to make him happy. i don wan because of mi he gets upsets almost every wk. it jus hurts to see him sighing away. if one day u seriously can't stand it anymore. jus leave.. i wouldn't blame u for tat. there're far more better girls out there. i'm not a gf material afterall. mayb it's his bad luck to have a gf like mi ba.
ying jus msg mi. she haven board the plane yet la. and i tot was very early flight. njoy urself ba ying ying! SQ flight attendant are please to serve u. coffee? tea? or mi?
