test sux todae went into the exam hall blank.. shit!!! preparing ta fail le la.. cos i'm blank.. the paper sux!!! hope can get beyond 10 la.. keke..
i'm using kat's fujitsu laptop.. cool~ keke.. thx her 4 letting mi use awhile.. kat don stress la.. keke.. relax.. holidae coming le ma..
my head izz replaying the scene.. don noe why la... jus disappointed and sad.. thx allan 4 talking ta mi.. i'm jus plain stubborn.. and wit supa loads of attitude problem.. gonna really think alot of things de.. jus can't stop replaying the scene.. don noe why.. i jus wan tis.. i avoid.. tat's mi.. always avoiding things.. mayb.. it's all due ta not understanding ba~ i guess ba.. i don understand u well enough.. i hope i can stop replaying.. u're the 1st.. nv will i 4get tis incident.. jus sad.. let mi be alone ba.. guess i'll gib sentosa a skip ba.. don wanna spoil mood la.. u guys go enjoy la.. let mi think it through.. todae shd be a happi dae.. but it's spoilt because of mi..
sorry 4 all the things cause by mi~ i'm jus stubborn.. nth can change tat~ tat's mi~ i'm jus someone wit attitude problems.. i can nv stop being so attitude lo~ jus gonna stand.. everyone have it.. ya.. mine is the major kind la.. i noe.. so gonna change.. how? say easy lo.. do izz supa difficult~ nah.. not going ta do anything.. jus gonna study hard le.. don wanna retake any of my modules..
i can nv erase the hurt tat u cause mi.. it's gonna be there 4eva.. sorry~ it can't be 4gotten.. it'll always be linked~ hope i can 4get la.. but 4 now i can't.. i'm carrying the burden.. nv will i let go of it lo~
jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ni zhi dao..
hope i'll be fine after awhile.. but not so soon ba~ cos i'm sad.. ya.. admitted tat i'm in wrong~ like ta have things the way i wan.. nv spare a tot of ppl feelings too~ it's all started because of miiii~ it's all my fault.. i'm the one wit the most attitude.. most unreasonable person on earth.. when did i became like tat? i don noe i really don noe? i really becum someone i don even noe myself.. why? finally got wat calvin means when he say.. i've turned into a dark jernel.. a gal he did not noe.. i finally agree wit wat he's saying le.. i really don noe wat i'm doing also.. always hurting ppl.. i don noe wat's got into mi~ hurting him everytime.. he always gib in ta mi.. but mi.. ignoring him and avoiding him.. wat's actually got into mi? i really don noe wat i'm doing~ ~sorry~ i've hurt hm badly le..
it's 2 late le.. i can't turn back the time le.. sorry~ it's all link.. i can't face it lo~
hurt hurt hurt.. super hurt~ nv will i care again~ i'm over caring le~ enough.. think 4 myself 1st le..
there's gonna be another change in miiii.. even guan.. say i change 4 the worst le.. so.. gonna change~
nah.. can't be bothered le~
gonna study le~ or i'm gonna flunk it again~ nv!!!!
hope i can stop.. but.. i jus can't~ stop.. u're hurting miiiiiiiiiiii~ STOP!!!!!!!
