haiz.. been bothered by losta stuffs lo.. bgr especially lo.. hahz.. now seldom talk to my sista le.. so nv update them wit my problems le.. haiz.. everybody busy working ma.. hard la.. haiz.. i oso wanna talk to them if can.. haiz.. too much things bothering mi le.. haiz.. 'o' level results coming out le.. don noe 25 or 28 ah.. haiz.. i going nearer and nearer to my death dae le.. haiz.. i don wanna get my results so fast lei.. haiz..
the thing i'm most uptight wit izz bgr le lo.. haiz.. i really had enough of this le.. i noe.. everyone really treats mi well.. but it's really hard 4 mi.. 2 step into another relationship again.. i'm scared of being hurt again.. really.. i'm scared to commit.. i'm really scared.. i noe everyone treats mi well.. too well.. i'm jus scared lo.. i'm sorry u guys.. calvin.. u can always sense tat i'm not happy and moody.. but.. i jus don wanna tell u.. i don wanna say.. haiz.. don noe la.. i also don noe la.. i'm not the jernel tat u noe last yr le.. it's a changed nel le lo.. u noe.. i'm really not worth it 4 anyone's love lo.. really really.. i also don like this mi now lo.. really.. i'm an awful person now.. haiz.. xia wei ah.. don do things tat will make urself feel unhappy lo.. cherish urself hao bu hao.. or i'll feel guilty de lo.. it's really no use waiting 4 mi de lo.. go ahead wit ur life.. i'm sure there izz someone better than mi.. who cherish u even more de.. alex.. sorry.. everytime u ask mi bout mondae.. i nv reply u.. cos.. i really don noe how ta ans lo.. guess.. i'll stay at home 4 the dae lo.. so not to hurt anyone lo.. so.. though i'm dateless on valentine dae.. i'll be happi de lo.. cos i can't make up my mind ma.. so.. enjoy urself ba.. hmmm.. james.. always let u wait 4 my msg.. sorry.. u always nv slp due to waiting 4 my msges.. sorry.. next time when i nv reply u.. don bother to wait le lo.. k.. theodore.. always say wanna call u back but in the end always nv de.. so sorry.. nv kept my promises.. philip.. make u wait 4 mi 4 many yrs le.. sorry.. concentrate on ur studies 1st k.. no matter wat..
i'm still waiting 4 my love to come.. guess god.. have ta punish mi ba.. cos i've been fooling around 4 many yrs le..
i'm still waiting, waiting 4 u.. no matter wat i'll always here 4 u.. hope u'll cum find mi soon.. lovE lOvE.. mY lovE!!! mY lOve!!!
